"When it comes to life, the critical thing is whether you take things for granted or take them with gratitude." G. K. Chesterton

The Mystery of Me

I’m quite the mix – clearly one of a kind.
With powerful self-knowledge, but partially blind.
To those pesky habits that interfere with my sight.
Keeping me bound and out of the light.

Fear of rejection, needing it right.
Stress hormones triggered – it’s fight or it’s flight.
I am lonely when one; uncertain with more.
Confused by it all – losing me in a war.

It’s coming to a head, as the birds have all flown.
Feeling wrinkled, old, and somewhat wind-blown.
The storm of this season is rough on my heart.
Giving birth to an urge – a need to restart.

Repurpose and find a new reason to live.
I have more gifts inside that I think I can give.
To others who might be in this same stagnant place.
Wishing, wanting, needing God’s grace.

And so this mystery might no longer be.
As I slow down, be kind, and be grateful for me.
Get comfortable with living in this old, sagging skin.
Go down fighting – targeting a glorious win.

My victory will be measured in intangible ways.
Leaving my piece of this world set ablaze.
With the fire of the Spirit – He is my true friend.
I promise to serve Him until the bittersweet end.

But the end to this side is really a breakthrough.
To a place that has a clear, heavenly view.
So when it’s my time, I’ll leave feeling blessed.
Knowing I will be greeted by the best of the best.

Saints, family, friends who are now gone.
To the Father  - the one to whom we belong.
And on that day, according to God’s plan,
I’ll give Him a hug and, by His grace, understand.

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